This is my last thought of the year and my notebook's also full so I need another one. This year had changed me a lot. I've found somethings to look forward to in the next years to come. I learned to live alone and away from my family but it made me stronger. It made me crave for what I really love. I've met people, some were great and not so great. I've created friendships that I wouldn't think it would turn out to be successful. A year full of fun and failure but it turned out to be a challenge. It made me know myself and others around me. I've learned to trust and not to trust.
I was like in an independent movie, full of secrets, and intrigues where not everyone could watch it or understand it. It was amazing and not amazing year at the same time. As I write this, I am rewinding all the events that had happened for the past months. An episode of breakdown made it harder for me but I've passed through it. My heart's been broken so many times but not my soul. Still I would like to say Thank you to everyone who'd accepted my quirkiness and to long time friends who tried connecting me but I disconnected for sometime. They inspire me to do more because they're the greatest people in the world. Distance and time cannot break an almost a decade of friendship but it made it tougher because of what our hearts say to each other even if we didn't see eah other that much.
Those rainy days that flooded my way yet I still walked and took me to safety to people who really do care. It's my first time to feel the ickiness of the dirty water just to get home. Those days were not great but some people turned it to humor and bondage. Those traffic days which made me think deeper and not just look but to carefully see more what's around me. It made listen not just to the noise but also to the people. Through those book hunting and author signings which made me happy for sometime. Those broke days and I didn't know where to go and yet I still survived. Those feelings of insecurity and anxiousness should be left before the clock strikes 12.
This is not a new chapter of the book but it must be rewritten. It must be edited. This time there must be more positivity and break the silence inside and bring it on. Let's rock the world tonight!
Have a Happy New Year everyone! See you next year!
About Me
- randomgirl01
- Call me Joyce.. A bibliophile, cinephile, insanely sane, twisted mind, horrifyingly eccentric, an evolutionist, paradox of different worlds, ill-mannered creature, sensitive freak, voracious eater of information, defies gravity, excessive compulsive, unlimited playfulness, intrepid craziness, a viking, annihilates boredom, "curiouser and curiouser", my dystopic world,a constant behavioral seeker, unexpected decisions, instant recovery, occassional numbness, selective amnesia, emotional torture, gullible girl... and These are my random thoughts. These what makes us human. You can read my other works here: http://www.tumblr.com/tumblelog/chimeangel01
